my mom wants to keep me under lock and key what the f***!!! damn will i ever be considered an adult by her? damn she came in last night bitchin' --str8 bitchin-- about every damn thing. the dishes weren't done, i had my crap all over the place this and that etc. but did it ever occur to her that i might haVE BEEN DOING MY WORK AND HAVE 4GOTTEN ABOUT THAT SHIT? (oops caps lock) dang my books weren't out there for show thats kind of stupid.... can't wait til camp this summer i need to get my grades 2gether this semester so i can be on campus next sme. cuz i cant be underneath her anymore she's really gettin on my nerves maybe its her hormones or fibromyalgia or wehatever but damn i get tired too dont care if i'm "only 18" and should have done my work earlier so what if i liek to procrastinate and when i put my shelves up last night wtf she was yellin for she knows i make a lil bit of noise every night its called cleanin up like she never makes any noise got damn....shes gonna make me have another panic attack.
is it so hard for her to consider my point of view like this past monday she came and picked me up @ skool instead of me taking the bus and i tripped over a chair trying get my stuff so i could gfet out the door she called me when she arrived and i was like i'mma be out in a min. and then she calls as i'm walkin out the door right in front of her she didnt think ya know maybe i'm comin and someone a professor maybe might have stopped to talk to me or MAYBE i may have tripped over something or sprained my ankle (which btw i did) and i'm known for but no all she said when i got in was "what took you so long" damn i could have really hurt myself no concern whatsoever. and when she comes in on wed. nights she doesnt ask did i get any skoolwork done yet she wanna yell when my grades come in.
just because i'm in college now doesnt mean she has to stop being my mother she even cusses more in front of me now...it doesnt sound right cuz shes my mom i realize shes human and shit but damn i'm ya child mother come on now got me cryin.... i told her i hada presentation last wek did she ask me if i did good or not? no i had the shakes last week (panic attack and all) but she acted like she didnt see me shakin i know she did she notices everything else. and she just be walkin right in my room and tellin me my room is messy but hers is messier her clothes all over the place i gotta go to class soon lemme get off here i'll rant some more later.
Labels: life, school
